"Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but steadfast love surrounds the one who trusts in the Lord." Psalm 32:10
Trust is a hard thing for me. I am a person who likes to be in control of every aspect of what is going on around me. I don't like surprises, and I don't like unexpected outcomes. I often overextend myself just making sure that everything goes according to plan. However, the truth is that I am never in control of the plan.
Life sometimes just takes me by surprise. A glass of water will tip over and spill everywhere. That was not in my plan. The dog tears up the rug....again, not in the plan. A diagnosis comes that changes everything, a job goes away, a parent dies, a spouse leaves. None of these things are ever in anyone's plans. But they happen. There is a way to be prepared for these interruptions. It is called prayer.
God saw it all coming. He knew about the water, the rug, the diagnosis, all of it. He knew that there was going to come a time when there would be no answers to my questions. He just knows. Honestly, sometimes that bothers me. He knows, but I don't. Because He is God, and I am not. OUCH! There we have it. He gets to know because he created it all. He gets to know because he knows better than me. He knows I need to grow in the wondering. He knows I can't handle all the answers right now.
So, what do I do when I don't know what to do? I pray. What do I do when I can't pray? I ask my friends to pray. I get in God's word and let Him teach me. I let Him remind me that He has been and always will be in control. Nothing happens outside his permission. Sometimes, things don't get fixed, and we never get answers. I must be okay with that. I must trust the same God that has always been faithful. He has never failed, and he never will.
" The heart of man plans his way,
but the Lord establishes his steps." Proverbs 16:9
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9